And it burns

Was wondering why Hangs were not having as many people show up as usual over the last couple of weeks.

Still have no idea.

Two Vets showed up last night and there is a thought that the universe is having newbies shy away so that high-octane fires can come about.

Really wish that we had set it up to be recorded so that there would some evidence of a “proof of concept”. Then again, I don’t think that anyone but Vets would have the eyes to see.

How do I put this is a way that points to the physics? 

There might be a lot of parts to this so try to get to the end of this, ok?

Yes, you can eventually get to the place where you can make the decision to do anything you want to do. 

AND, yes, sometimes it’s just a helluva lot easier to have someone else coax or strike or fan-the-fire in such a way that the thing explodes. 

The first time in KOODing anything is usually just about getting it done, getting it over with, proving to yourself that your head doesn’t actually explode nor does the devil come to claim your everlasting soul right now.

Power dances can help with this.

In the vernacular, topping and bottoming can help with this.

That’s one thing that happened last night.

For me, it was applying a certain type of stimulus whose impact set up an explosive event.

Another thing was the witnessing/owning that bringing a great, even a huge amount, of pain to someone can be a great assistance to that person. To be sure, it takes a certain type of meaning-making, vocabulary, and skillsets AND a level of competency with all three, to be in a hugely painful event and have it be “a road through” instead of a “thing to be defended against”. 

In this arena, a meta for pain is that it is the guardian for certain events, certain meaning-makings that the current character cannot be. Surround an event, a thing, a meaning-making with enough pain and the person will never go there. 

In Dojo, at a certain level of practice, you do indeed practice “self-immolation”.

It’s actually “character immolation”.

And if you’re not experiencing it as “self-immolation”, you’re not doing it.

The third thing is the being with the person who has just brought back an exile-from-self.

Not the intellectual understanding of what that exile-from-self is.

That’s just the K of KOOD.

What is someone like who has just embodied both the protection around the exile-from-self and the exile-from-self itself?

If you’ve ever been with someone who has been out beyond 5 standard deviations of human experience, it’s like that.

Standing there, naked, not in judgement.
This is what is.
I’m not making it go away.

I’m not making it bigger.

I am not turning away from this any longer. 

And it burns.

And it burns.

Some do what they can to make it burn brighter, hotter.

And then it doesn’t burn any more.

It’s amazing to do it.

It’s amazing to witness it.